Category: Dating and Relationships
Throughout my years of public school, all I had to endure was teasing and hate from everyone, as I was known as "The Blind Girl." As the years went by, I became more well known by teachers, and treated special, because I was "different," and I was allowed lots of leeway. As i grew older, people began to hate me, because noone liked that about me, and I became the most hated girl in school, never believing i had much of a future ahead of me. To me, it would have all been the same, that is until I had the chance to attend the Texas School for the Blind And Visually Impaired for two years of high school, which brought many changes to my life. Little did I know i would finally make friends, grow rediculously attached to the school, and, as it turned out, fall in love. I fell in love with a guy whom I met at age 15. He is two years older than me, also totally blind. My time spent with him was well worth more than any money I will ever have, and I will never have to see his face to know what I saw in his eyes, and his heart. I ended up giving him "everything." He is very attractive, but I do not see him as just plain "hot," my eyes will not allow that. I only see through him, and not only is he very lonely and hurt from past experiences, but he is so kind, and worth more than he could ever know. I know that when he reads this, he may let his tears fall, even if he never tells me so. But he had no idea who I was, emotionally, and still does not really know, and I guess he never will. Although he himself is blind, he is not seeking a blind girl, he wants sex and looks alone. He desires attention and admiration, and i cant help but understand him. I would have wanted that long ago. As time went on he started growing colder toward me, and now his heart is so far from mine. It is filled with hate and anger, and mine with pure useless blind love. I should hate him for all he's put me through, but they say love is blind, and it was my heart that chose him. This whole thing is stupid, and a waste of time, but noone understands that I've never had someone even consider asking me out before he did, only to him, it was a joke, and to me, it was the best thing that could have ever happened . Years went by, and we became close friends, although I had to grit my teeth and hide what I really felt when he talked to me about other girls. I still have to do that sometimes. After about four years of knowing him, he got married, and we lost contact, and that was my reason for joining the site. He is now divorced, (that relationship did not work out for him.) A mutual friend put us back in contact, and despite his reasons for doing so, i am grateful!
But another girl has taken his attention, as it always has been. His heart does not see me there unless he needs something. I guess I will never be good enough for him, not like i used to be when I first met him and was "fresh and new," because I dont know how to get to his heart, and believe me, I have tried everything i know. I can not be cold to him, my heart will not permit it, and I have been through too much in my life, that I feel like I will never be strong enough. He may never love me, and my heart will never understand. There is a lot more to the story, but I have to keep this short. For more information, just ask. I post this because it really means a lot to me, and all of you are familiar with this user. Out of respect for him, I will not reveal his name here, but I'm sure he would be glad to tell you all himself, if it gives him any pride in doing so. He may not want to talk about it because it is a borring topic, and means nothing to him. Guys are like that, I guess! All of this to say, this site will always be a big part of our story, but it could be the end of my hopes. I do hope to be able to move on, but only time will tell...
I think that it is a good thing for you and him to be friends but just be very carefull with him. I think he will never just have one girl in his life at one time and that is not right.
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I'm sorry to say this but I think a lot of men can't stand clingy women! And although I understand where you're coming from, you seem to need him to be more than just someone who will love you but obsess over you as you do him. I am curious to know what happened while he was married. Did you meet other men? Or were you still hoping for his love despite the odds? I don't know if you wrote this because you wanted/needed sympathy or if you wanted to read about others with similar situations. But whatever the reasons, my advice to you is to let love take its course and stop trying to change him or make him out to be something he isn't. If he doesn't feel the same towards you, have a bit of dignity and give someone else a chance. I know it's harder to do but he's not worth your love if it isn't recipricated. lol I myself prefer not to have a clingy man so I guess it's not just men who find it annoying. But good luck though.
Well, yes, i did want to read about similar situations, I suppose, but more than that, i just needed to leave it somewhere, although it wouldn't do much good. And to answer your question, I did find someone else while he was married, and believe me, he was worth more than I could have ever hoped for. However, there's no way I could have ever fallen completely in love with him because his parents are way too overprotective. We actually lasted quite a while, but it just wasn't working, so I left him, and that's when i started talking to this guy again as friends. It's just hard to be friends with him sometimes because he's constantly talking about other girls as if he doesn't care about my feelings. i mean, i want to be friends with him, and I want to be strong, so I dont tell him often, but that's not an easy thing to do when my heart keeps on with the same thing all the time. i hate it, trust me! And another thing, I dont want him to be with me either, not if he isn't wanting that. The only thing i really want is to be able to move on, and stay friends with him, and stop feeling the way I do, but both he and I know that's not possible.
Wow, that's definitely a bummer. But I will say that I've been in my fair share of relationships that have been ruined by the girl being too clingy. That's not to say that I didn't wholeheartedly appreciate her feelings toward me, but I just didn't feel the same way after a while. Unfortunately, and I think many people would agree, the more someone pushes us away, the more we want them. If we could somehow apply that to a healthy, happy relationship, we would have less broken hearts. Anyway, best of luck, and remember that you deserve better than to live with a burden, so wonderful, but still a bitch to carry.
Oh boy! I have this problem. The fortunate thing is that we both talked about it, and we are the best of friends. What helped us was not speaking for about 3 years. Now when we do talk, its treasured. Its hard to stop the heart from feeling things, but you need to somehow just put it into its proper place. I mean if he doesn't want you, you can't waste your life waiting. I actually tried that, and lost. Now that I have learned to care and be friends, I can love again. Just my opinion.
I'm sure love is blind and also I'm sure about love is nothing but give and take. (mutual). if not, that can't be a true love, you see.
Raaj
oh manb, i had a similar situation twice in my life.
the first was in 2006, wehn i met the guy of my dreams, well at least i thoght he was. He was sweet, kind, cairing, he helped me thrue some very ruff times. Only thing i didint no, is he only wanted me for one thing. Once he found out that he couldnt get it, he left. I was heart broken and felt like i was un able to love for over a year. it wasnt untill December that my eyes got opend up to love again.
I found the best man I have ever dated, he was gental, sweet, very sensitive. Only problem was he was and is a liear.. I wont say his name out hear for respect for him, but i am sure menny of you no who he is. anyhow, I left him,and that probably could hae been the stupidest thing i ever did. My nights are now spent crying, and trying to brethe. He was truely a tresure in my life.
Granted i am dating again, my heart has not completely heeld. And nowing he has someone ellse really kills me. I would give anything to be back with him again.
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Anyhow, that's my story./
girl, all i can say is chin up, and if you ever need to talk I'm hear.
you can find my infermation on my profile.
bBLND_girl
is the name.:)
much love,
Morgan